Sunday, February 3, 2019

the day i became sad of my mom

*Don’t feel sad over someone who gave up on you feel sad for them because they gave up on someone who would have never given up on them*
It’s the wedding day and everyone had been running up and down. It had been a week since Stevie left for England. He never got in touch with his parents. They didn’t even know if he arrived safe. His mother kept crying everyday hoping his son will come back but there was no sign of him. He didn’t want to be found or being bothered.
Your walk down the aisle is the most epic, most photographed, most significant brief walk of your life. How will you feel as you make your way to your soon to be husband? Feeling so fully yourself and completely loved in the moments before and during your walk up the aisle. Feeling love and pride emanating from your parents as they walk beside you. The guest beaming at you. As you walk slowly not rushing seeing everyone and eventually as you walk.
To our bride- to be, Bianca. She was feeling nervous. Let me describe that feeling. She was anxious, worried because she thought ‘something bad’ might happen. She was on tenter hooks, on edge, feeling tense. She broke into a sweat. Her heart pounded and her hand began to feel clammy against her bouncing knee. She began to pace back and forth, stomping her feet impatiently at end of the room.
A knock on the door made her feel sweat beading on her forehead. She walked to the door and opened it.
“Mum!” She threw her arms around her shoulders. “I am feeling nervous.”
“Are you having second thoughts about the wedding?”
She nodded.
“Yes!”
“This is your day my baby. No need to be nervous but I understand your feeling. I am here for you. You are marrying the father of your baby. Your dad is waiting for you.”
“I will be downstairs shortly.”
After few minutes
She felt like she was floating. Totally could not hear the music at all. She was just so emotional that she didn’t even know what was going on. It was very surreal. Cool to look around and made eye contact with the guests when she had registered that each was there. Her dad made her cry so tears were streaking down the whole time.
The aisle at the church was very long so she couldn’t see her fiancee well until she was halfway down.
She stopped walking. Was she having second thoughts? Did she love him? Or maybe she was marrying him because he was the father of her unborn child. What was wrong with her?
“Dad, I can’t do this,” she finally spoke.
“What?!”
“I don’t know why but I feel like marrying Daniel is the end of my happiness,” She didn’t know what was the matter with her. She needed some space and time to think but it was late.
“My princess. Don’t worry I am here. Daniel loves you.”
They continued walking down the aisle. Officiant began,
“Dear friends and family, we are gathered here today to witness and celebrate the union of Daniel Dube and Bianca Brown in marriage,” says the Pastor. “In the years they have been together their love and understanding of each other has grown and matured, and how they have decided to live their lives together as husband and wife.”
True marriage is more than simply joining two persons together through the bonds of matrimony. It is also the union of two hearts and the blending of two families. It lives on the love you give each other and never grows old, but also thrives on the joy of each new day. Marriage is and should be an expression of love. Anyway back to the wedding after some few minutes.
“Do you Daniel Dube take Bianca Brown to be your lawfully wedded wife, husband, promising to love and cherish, through joy and sorrow, sickness and health and whatever challenges you may face, for as long as you both shall live?”
With a big smile on his face.
“I do!” He sounded cheerful.
Now to Bianca.
“Do you Bianca Brown take Daniel Dube to be your lawfully wedded wife, husband, promising to love and cherish, through joy and sorrow, sickness and health and whatever challenges you may face, for as long as you both shall live?”
She looked up at him, her brown eyes wide, darkening rapidly, her breathing hard and fast. But it was the current of pure electricity between them that told him he was doing the right thing. But was she? She bit down hard on her tongue. But as she looked up into his face, searched his eyes, all she could do was shake her head.
“I do!” she agreed.
The ceremony went on. Now here comes the part,
“If any of you has reasons why these two should not be married. Speak now or forever hold your peace.”
Bianca looked around, her heart pounding really fast. Her breath caught in her throat.
“Welll so if…”
“I do! These two should not be together or get married,” cut the Pastor short.
All eyes at the door. Shock coursed through her body, leaving her almost gasping for air, as if she had been plunged into a cold sea.
“What the hell are you doing here?!” shouted Daniel.

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